"Puberty" is an ongoing self-portrait project that both diarizes and publicizes the intimate process of caring for oneself as a non-binary transgender person. Combining surreal colours and mundane environments, it documents daily moments and slow, subtle physical changes occurring during my transition on hormonal replacement therapy. Furthermore, this project challenges ideas of what transition can look like outside of the binary. 

In April 2018, I began a medical transition by taking bi-weekly testosterone treatments. Testosterone generates changes in the body, such as body hair growth, and redistribution of fat and muscle tissue, as well as changes in emotional regulation. Since increasing my testosterone dosage in January 2019, I have been documenting these changes through a daily self-portrait practice that examines identity as a space in constant flux. Exploring the nature of self-representation in the era of social media, the images are shot digitally, exist largely online and are presented as a slideshow when exhibited. A book of the project is in the works. The resulting images are at once staged and candid, setting up a tripod in my home as I go about my daily routines. Set in highly-saturated domestic spaces, these photographs look at both minute details of transition which are seldom represented.

Beyond gender markers, this work is all the more about the universal experience of learning to care for oneself. With this project, I am showing [a] trans life outside of the limelight by depicting day-to-day moments, turning my lens inward and creating work rooted in [self] care. I look at transition as a slow and at times lonely process in a society where trans lives are marginalized. By offering a glimpse into intimate scenes of my life, I am creating a primary source document on a trans life in North America in the 21st century, that humanizes our existence and creates a future where we face less violence, and more acceptance.

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